The occasional bout of Post-Mormon anger

For the most part, I would consider myself recovered from being Mormon. But - there is the occasional moment of total unbridled anger. I had one on Sunday when I heard this piece of crap was read during church:

"We are informed that the United States Senate will on June 6, 2006, vote on an amendment to the Federal constitution designed to protect the traditional institution of marriage.

We, as the First Presidency and the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles, have repeatedly set forth our position that the marriage of a man and a woman is the only acceptable marriage relationship.

In 1995 we issued a Proclamation to the World on this matter, and have repeatedly reaffirmed that position.

In that proclamation we said: 'We call upon responsible citizens and officers of government everywhere to promote those measures designed to maintain and strengthen the family as the fundamental unit of society.'

We urge our members to express themselves on this urgent matter to their elected representatives in the Senate. "

When I read this, I was almost really sad I didn't go to church any more. Because I would have really really liked to get up and walk out after hearing that. Other than the LDS church's horrid treatment of women, their treatment of homosexuals was the biggest struggle I had while I attended. It caused me so much heartache - constantly wondering why deep down in my soul I so firmly believed in the equal treatment of gays and lesbians, while also constantly being told by the prophet said *I* was wrong to feel this way. Watching how they destroyed the people in my life who supposedly "suffered" from this "problem". Telling me how "proud" I was to disagree with the "brethren".

Fuck them all. It is not homosexuals that are destroying the institution of marriage. I do divorces for a living - trust me, the heterosexual couples out there are doing that just fine on their own. How dare some so-called christian republican senator who has been banging his young interns on the side get up and talk to me about the sanctity of marriage.

Hell, if we REALLY want to back to the original purposes of marriage, let's go ahead and make it what it really was in the good ol' days... a fucking CONTRACT between MEN for the exchange of property (WOMEN) for titles, lands, dowries, to secure an heir, for political alliances, etc. And don't forget... Let's lynch anybody who dares to cross racial lines too. That was the way marriage used to be and wow, it's even supported by the Bible. Ugh!

And seriously, how can the LDS church actually say with a straight face that they have repeatedly supported the idea the only acceptable marriage is between a man and a woman - um HELLO!! Polygamy?! Jesus H. Christ, for years and years and years, the LDS church preached AGAINST monogamy as unnatural, and impure, and sure to mean the end of society. Fucking hypocrites.

If two people of the same gender want to make a commitment to each other and love each other and build a life and a family together, who am I to say that is any less valid than the commitment between me and my husband? EVERYONE deserves a life of passion and love and to build a home with a person that makes their heart skip a beat. EVERYONE.